Hello Again

poppyI keep feeling as though 2015 has just begun.  And then I look at a calendar and realize it’s almost May.  Crap!

It has been months since I’ve posted on the blog.  In January I had some health issues arise.  There was a cancer scare (thankfully no cancer was found).  Surgery.  Recovery.  I won’t go into the details of it all, but I am doing much better now.  In the last few weeks I’ve felt as though I’m slowly emerging from this unexpected season.  Yet, there are also moments when I realize that I am still recovering.  Recovery, whether physical, emotional, or both, just seems to take longer than I ever anticipate.

I’ve struggled to write throughout this experience.  At first, it just felt too personal to post online.  Especially when cancer was on the table.  Especially as I waited for test results.  Especially as I had no idea what was going on in my body.  Then, I didn’t know what to write.  I was and am still a jumbled mess of gratitude, confusion, and weakness.  I still don’t quite know what I want to write, but I am choosing to start again.  To find my words once more.

So, hello.  Again.

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