I keep feeling as though 2015 has just begun. And then I look at a calendar and realize it’s almost May. Crap!
It has been months since I’ve posted on the blog. In January I had some health issues arise. There was a cancer scare (thankfully no cancer was found). Surgery. Recovery. I won’t go into the details of it all, but I am doing much better now. In the last few weeks I’ve felt as though I’m slowly emerging from this unexpected season. Yet, there are also moments when I realize that I am still recovering. Recovery, whether physical, emotional, or both, just seems to take longer than I ever anticipate.
I’ve struggled to write throughout this experience. At first, it just felt too personal to post online. Especially when cancer was on the table. Especially as I waited for test results. Especially as I had no idea what was going on in my body. Then, I didn’t know what to write. I was and am still a jumbled mess of gratitude, confusion, and weakness. I still don’t quite know what I want to write, but I am choosing to start again. To find my words once more.
So, hello. Again.
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